underattacker – panicstarterdesigner, programmer, lover.

really good times with noel and ian tonight. probably the only two people i can ever fully trust and tell anything to. it feels good to finally get a lot of things off my chest and to just confide in someone. #support

it’s so awesome to have friends all over the world that you can depend on to take care of your other friends, no questions asked.

i got some good and supportive friends/brothers.

but i haven’t felt like this in a long while…

pay constant attention to yourself and to your teaching. stay by these things, for by doing this you will save both yourself and those who listen to you.

is this “everybody ignore boogie” month or something?

typical filipinos lol

no one wants to accompany me at all this weekend. not on saturday. not on sunday. this just reassures my notions and hunches. i’m kinda jellies at the love that everyone else is getting.

been mia lately. it’s a long story. i’d rather not share all of it, but what i will share is that i feel like i’m in a better place right now. i didn’t really feel respected or appreciated and it’s a little sad that i have to actually go out and look for it elsewhere. usually something as simple as that is already expected, but i seem to be the odd man out here. so i’ll go somewhere else.

i’m just glad that i have people in my life now that have surfaced that really care for me and really appreciate my time. those are the relationships that i’m really focusing on right now.

see how you like it

been watching a lot of the local news lately. been seeing a lot of fatal crashes and accidents. also been to a lot of funerals lately too. makes me wonder what it’d be like if i were to die in some sort of accident. i’ve thought about this a lot actually. this same thought always comes to mind for some reason and everytime it does, i always play the scenario in my head: how do i die? do i die at a deathbed with friends and family present from some terminal cancer? do i die from a fatal car crash? who shows up to the funeral? are they crying? what kind of talks do they prepare for my funeral discourse, if anything? what would they say? what would they miss about me? what did they think about me?

that’s something i’d really like to hear right now.

will probably continue to update this:

1. stupid people
2. people who think they’re smart
3. people afraid of confrontation, yet they seem to be all tough behind their facebook posts and tweets
4. people that bother me while my headphones are on
5. “friends”
6. people that front. you know who you are
7. FLAKES
8. boring people

if you have the time to listen to all of the bs, you have the time to listen to the true story.