underattacker – panicstarterdesigner, programmer, lover.

you just don’t tweet enough. <3

it really is the little things that make me happy. it could be the most simple “i miss you” or “i like you so much” that could make my day. just mean what you say.

at some point in time there’s a specific way you must talk to your guy. you should know how to string the most perfect words together that will uplift him, and place him on a pedestal like no other human being on god’s green earth can do. but after that, you can go back to bossing him around. women always know best.

just man up and come to me if something truly is bothering you. don’t ask other people. ask me.

chances are, if you didn’t mess up your friendship with me, i just might tell you.

and i’m going to be the first to say/admit it: we’ve all lost our touch. something just seems to be…off.

this weekend was definitely that. making someone’s day life, ballin up some guys, being there for a friend when no one else is, awkward balloons, feeling the loving support, being told you’re an important influence in one’s life, reevaluating and losing friendships. it was quite the weekend.

What is love and what does it mean to love? How do you know you’re in love? What does it feel like? What’s the craziest thing you’ve ever done/would do for love?

was asked this via formspring, which i’ve been neglecting btw, and thought it would be more appropriate to answer this more intimately.

i feel like this is something you should ask, say a couple celebrating their 75th year of happy marriage. hard to find one? tell me about it. but when you do see elderly affection, it’s so amazingly adorable and sweet and everything you ever wish for. that’s love.

i used to compare love to a blanket, sort of like how Linus loved his blanket – unconditional, requited, and reliable. but then you’d be Linus (and that’s a problem in itself), living a paradoxical life of intelligence yet a slave to the security of his blanket. when love becomes akin to a security blanket, it’s time to reevaluate the relationship. don’t get confused. love is comfortable but shouldn’t stunt growth.

let’s say that boy meets girl. their relationship comes to a standstill. boy wants a small town, girl wants the city. boy wants to follow girl around, girl wants to improve herself. boy wants marriage, girl does not. their wants and needs were totally different. most importantly, he stopped challenging her to be a better person, a smarter person, a thirstier person.

the girl loved him but wasn’t IN love with him. those are 2 separate concepts. you can love your dog, mom, school, blankie, but to be in love with another person takes it to another level. honestly, i don’t know what love is. is it being able to fart in front of one another? showing up with flowers on any given day? remembering an important day? it’s all of those and so much more. above all, it’s a positive influence in your life. the ratio of smiles and laughter to sadness and tears should be at 80:20 on any given day.

love is happiness. that sounds simple, but it’s actually a lot more complex than you think.

the craziest thing i’ve done for love…is love. it’s a scary thing.

obviously, i’m lacking some because it seems that my posts have slowed down a little. my friends and i have always talked about consistency in life and in relationships. in regards to the latter, it’s so very important for a person to retain consistency if it is initiated, especially during the early “talking” days.

if you call at a certain time every day and make it a routine, the girl is going to be upset if you take a short cut. or so i was told. here’s a little tidbit that will make life easier: if you start something, see it to the end. otherwise, man up and suffer the consequences. maybe that’s why you didn’t get the girl.

1. find my counterpart
2. save a life
3. find my muse and write a song. the perfect song
4. midnight photoshoot around downtown, san diego
5. make someone’s day
6. spend at least $100 at comic-con 2010
7. TBD
8. longboard at least 3 miles of silverstrand beach
9. TBD
10. have a super-mega-epic 20+ game of zombie
11. TBD
12. purchase small-scale gundam model kit with several friends and have a gundam session at a local fast food place
13. TBD
14. TBD
15. attend my first lakers game
16. attend my second chargers game
17. have a late night 4×4 in-n-out session
18. visit la jolla shores at night and watch the sunrise
19. TBD
20. TBD

so you just called. sorry if i seemed dumbfounded at first, but you were the last person i expected to call at this hour. especially after all of that. and i’m sorry to hear about what you’re going through. but it’s like i said earlier. i’ve been through a lot. i’ve left so much behind and given up a lot of things to be where i’m at now. life comes at you quick and sometimes…you just have to deal with it. there are no tips or tricks. you just have to deal with it.

but no more awkward balloons like that. seriously.

then WHY did you force me to setup this whole thing and make everyone free up their schedules and waste 4 hours of my time? i think it’s time to retire.

seriously. i think im going to retire.

then i totally don’t mind stupidity.

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