underattacker – panicstarterdesigner, programmer, lover.

today made up for a lot. indubitably.

i’ve had the chance to really get to know someone who i would usually push aside. some of my closest homies absolutely despise this guy for his shortcomings, and for a while, i went with it. i would see him at the local gathering of friends and i joined in on the jokes. but then i started to notice how genuine and humble this guy really was. he kept to himself despite all of the jokes. he still greeted me with a smile despite all of the ignorance. so i decided to try and keep up with the new persona and put some of the charm on him. needless to say, being slow to anger and keeping the integrity that’s expected of us really paid off.

if they won’t take it, i will. it’s just one more hand to add to the list for me to shake.

someone once asked me what the worst feeling in the world was. i kinda remember now: when you give someone your all and you get nothing back. *sigh* the good ol’ days.

the worst thing about always planning things in my mind is when things don’t go according to plan. i hate that.

i’m going to have to reallllly make up for it at the end of this week. oh and hopefully the weekend too.

just to promise you this?

because like i said: this thing is bigger than the both of us. maybe that’s what’s been wrong with me lately.

shouldn’t have confided in you. you aren’t being as supportive as i thought you’d be. as i expected you’d be. but it’s all good. i’ll take my business elsewhere. it’s just too bad though.

people like this

so i pretend it’s the last time

feeling like a little kid again

I guess my always-calculating and punctual mindset is not used to this, that’s all.

it was REALLY nice meeting all the pioneers today along with their families. it was especially nice hearing people ask me if boogie was really my first name. it’s going to be a good fortnight. love it!